…Dissaster….
June 11, 2008I hate admiring people, selfish, had no patience anymore, plans get lost, dont think positive, no more GOD in heart, this is all because of my PRIDE that I keeped inside. It made me guilty. Actually I’m not like this before. This is all started when the BIG trouble crossed my life. I was really down at that time. I think I’m going crazy. I can’t think well, almost mad everyday, my friends can’t understand me, I hated person. It seems like I’m alone at that time. I mostly say bad words, do bad things such as smoking and drink hard beverages, always say "BAHALA NA…". And mostly reasoning "I’m lacks of love of my parents", "Nobody cares for me at all", Nobody appreciated my doing", They dont like me because im fat".
… I could say that was a BIG BIG disaster come in my life.
….Hay……I’m tired of being like this. I want to change, I want to live normal.
…ExpresseD Me…
Some people expressed me STRICT, UNAPPROACHABLE, UNFRIENDLY, and RICH! Because of on how I dressed, how I speak out to others and in my facial expression. Actually, I dont have any one among they say. They could only say that because that’s what they saw on me. What they dont know is I’m such a weak person. "I know how to handle myself, yet weak in dealing Life" . Many people not know me(including my parents, friends, relatives). As they see me SIMPLE, HAVE DREAMS, GOOD or could I say enough to be idolized by others(hehehe…good implement). But when thet know who tuely I am! I can surely imagine they’re first expression "STUPID". Honestly, I’m a sensitive person. I easily get mad, get hurt, get tired and bored. I dont want anybody disturb me, I want to be alone with enjoyment such as going out with friends, go others places, etc. In short I want peace and freedom. I usually shouted when I feel anger inside, it makes me better and that’s my way in easing anger. I am also careful in doing things because I dont want to blame.
….This is hint for those person whoare interisted to know me…
