="My mAn"=

He’s just an ordinary man, who wanted to be succesful someday…

A man who has a great instinc..

Whose always ignoring those negative side..

A man who taught me

    to be strong..

    to be loved..

    to be wise..

    to be happy..

    to treat well others..

    to accept, whatever life bring me into..

    to lived life to the fulliest..

A man whom im proud with..

and he’s a man whose one of my treasure..

++ sAd sTorY oF MyLifE ++

I came from a separated family. I know it’s confidential to tell to public,  but I hadnt feel ashamed that anymore. After all the experiences I faced. I was seems a numb for pain. I never felt the love of a complete family. hahayy! it’s too sad. I never dreamt in my entire life to have a broken family. Maybe, it’s one of a reason why im like this, a sensitive, hot temper and have guilt in everything. I admit I had hatred for my family,because for me they did not mind my situation if how i’d be in my future….huhuhu.. I just want to be lived normal..I was the one who suffered this all… whatever i did to relieve the pain inside was just came nothing.. it’s like I have no right to be happy…huhuhu…I hope I’m wrong in expecting..

= "With and WithouT him"=

Without him mylife is mess…

Without him I’m incomplete…

Without him I wouldnt know how to be patience & to calm down..

Without him I cannot stand with my own feet…

If nobody be like him,

  I dont know what I am now…

Because..

With him, I learned to smile…

 With him,  I enjoyed a lot of things…

With him, i listened to his advice…

With him, I improved my self ability…

With him, he makes my life more meaningful…

That’s why..

  I love him so much and more, for showing his true color..

And that’s him my honey gHoNZe.

++It’s All Started frOm mY pAsT++

 I accept who I am. I admit what i’ve done. I’m not perfect you know! as well as nobodys perfect. I can do those bad things ’cause I’m just a human, a sinner and created of GOD. I regrets those time I made mistakes, even to say bad words to those whom I loved. i didnt mean it. God knows that. I just showing and shouting out my hatred inside. If they only know, it’s difficult for me to get through out into the real me. It seems I’m in prison, dont know the happenings of the outside world. I hope they’ed understand me. I was really trying to moved on from my past. And all I can do was seems nothing. I hurted person over and over again. I’m suffering this foolish life… Sooo damned life.. I want to changed, to have new life .. to be lived normal..

 Lord, I hope they forgive me.

++LeSSoN++

   I cried so hard when some things are not expected, not good for me or made me guilt. But why should I cry for my pride? As the songs lyrics says “Big girls dont cry”. It made me think twice that I have the right to stand up for my self. “Hello whendz!? i thought you’re strong?”. Some says I’m such a “Maldita” but  they dont know my weaknesses. No matter how ” Maldita” i am. I still felt lonely and scary. Maybe others think, my life was well and fortunate. What they dont know is I experienced a lot of difficulties in life. I made a lot of mistake. But after all, the important thing is I LEARNED.

++tHe iMpOrTaNcE oF LiFe++

  Life is beautiful. Full of challenges,sorrow,happiness..yet most precious of all.Without life,everything was nothing. It is very important to take care of our life, so that we may faced the peaceful rest and eternal life..

  Sometimes we attempted to kill ourselves for we dont like the life we have had. Just when we face difficult situation or trials. Mostly  we used to get doing bad things such as drugs,fraternity or sometimes suicideing. And that was so stupid deeds. For me, to have a good life is to thank God everyday for the blessings HE gave & to pray. All of a sudden praying is the most effective weapon against bad things & weaknesses. So keep praying to GOD and He’ll do the rest. Amen.