whendz

="My mAn"=

whendz — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 10:23:00 +0000

He's just an ordinary man, who wanted to be succesful someday...

A man who has a great instinc..

Whose always ignoring those negative side..

A man who taught me

to be strong..

to be loved..

to be wise..

to be happy..

to treat well others..

to accept, whatever life bring me into..

to lived life to the fulliest..

A man whom im proud with..

and he's a man whose one of my treasure..

++ sAd sTorY oF MyLifE ++

whendz — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 10:10:00 +0000

I came from a separated family. I know it's confidential to tell to public, but I hadnt feel ashamed that anymore. After all the experiences I faced. I was seems a numb for pain. I never felt the love of a complete family. hahayy! it's too sad. I never dreamt in my entire life to have a broken family. Maybe, it's one of a reason why im like this, a sensitive, hot temper and have guilt in everything. I admit I had hatred for my family,because for me they did not mind my situation if how i'd be in my future....huhuhu.. I just want to be lived normal..I was the one who suffered this all... whatever i did to relieve the pain inside was just came nothing.. it's like I have no right to be happy...huhuhu...I hope I'm wrong in expecting..

= "With and WithouT him"=

whendz — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 09:58:00 +0000

Without him mylife is mess...

Without him I'm incomplete...

Without him I wouldnt know how to be patience & to calm down..

Without him I cannot stand with my own feet...

If nobody be like him,

I dont know what I am now...

Because..

With him, I learned to smile...

With him, I enjoyed a lot of things...

With him, i listened to his advice...

With him, I improved my self ability...

With him, he makes my life more meaningful...

That's why..

I love him so much and more, for showing his true color..

And that's him my honey gHoNZe.

++It's All Started frOm mY pAsT++

whendz — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 09:46:00 +0000

I accept who I am. I admit what i've done. I'm not perfect you know! as well as nobodys perfect. I can do those bad things 'cause I'm just a human, a sinner and created of GOD. I regrets those time I made mistakes, even to say bad words to those whom I loved. i didnt mean it. God knows that. I just showing and shouting out my hatred inside. If they only know, it's difficult for me to get through out into the real me. It seems I'm in prison, dont know the happenings of the outside world. I hope they'ed understand me. I was really trying to moved on from my past. And all I can do was seems nothing. I hurted person over and over again. I'm suffering this foolish life... Sooo damned life.. I want to changed, to have new life .. to be lived normal..

Lord, I hope they forgive me.

++LeSSoN++

whendz — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 09:36:00 +0000

I cried so hard when some things are not expected, not good for me or made me guilt. But why should I cry for my pride? As the songs lyrics says "Big girls dont cry". It made me think twice that I have the right to stand up for my self. "Hello whendz!? i thought you're strong?". Some says I'm such a "Maldita" but they dont know my weaknesses. No matter how " Maldita" i am. I still felt lonely and scary. Maybe others think, my life was well and fortunate. What they dont know is I experienced a lot of difficulties in life. I made a lot of mistake. But after all, the important thing is I LEARNED.

++tHe iMpOrTaNcE oF LiFe++

whendz — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 09:21:00 +0000

Life is beautiful. Full of challenges,sorrow,happiness..yet most precious of all.Without life,everything was nothing. It is very important to take care of our life, so that we may faced the peaceful rest and eternal life..

Sometimes we attempted to kill ourselves for we dont like the life we have had. Just when we face difficult situation or trials. Mostly we used to get doing bad things such as drugs,fraternity or sometimes suicideing. And that was so stupid deeds. For me, to have a good life is to thank God everyday for the blessings HE gave & to pray. All of a sudden praying is the most effective weapon against bad things & weaknesses. So keep praying to GOD and He'll do the rest. Amen.

++ cLosEr tHaN wE kNoW ++

whendz — Thu, 14 May 2009 14:08:00 +0000

A friend is someone close to me. But I cannot think of any other person who has been closer to me than my mother. She is my Best Friend.

I recieved the gift of life in my mother's womb. I was so helpless, she did everything for me. She breathed for me, ate for me, her heart beat into my tiny heart. Before I could even open my eyes, I saw the world through my mother's eyes.... & I heard how beautiful it is from her voice. When the time came, she risked her own life & suffered all the pain bring me out into the world.

She was my first teacher who taught me what is right & wrong. She was a Real friend, who wanted only one thing - my happiness.

This is for you ma.. I Love You!

++ cOunT oN hiM++

whendz — Thu, 14 May 2009 13:44:00 +0000

The biggest scare in my life is to be left alone by myself. It is not the dark i'm afraid of; it's just being all by myself when i cant manage single-handed.

When i've failed or made a big mistake & everyone is pointing an accusing finger at me, I need someone who will stand between the crowd & me & speak up for me. When something at home doesnt work as i expect & I go crazy over it, I need someone to cool me down.

When i"m discouraged & feel quitting, I need someone who'll give me push. When i feel i cant carry all the burden all demands others impose on me, I need someones shoulder to lean on. When i'm all frowns, I need someone who'll cheer me up.

And he was already exist,

Thats why I thank God for bringing him into my life. I Love You Hon!

..someone called friend..

whendz — Sat, 04 Apr 2009 15:03:00 +0000

I can stand those fair-weathered friends who stick to me as long as Im OK. they're the nicest people around as long as they can get something from me. But when I get in trouble or get broke, they disappear into thin air.

A true friend is one who has passed the test of loyalty. He's one who is a friend at all times. He sticks it out with me at all cost's. Come hell or high waters.

A loyal friend is rare; when found, he is a treasure gained.But when gone, hes a treasure lost in oblivion. but like any earthly treasure, even the most solid friendships are shattered by time, by distance, by separation..

...Dissaster....

whendz — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 07:53:00 +0000

I hate admiring people, selfish, had no patience anymore, plans get lost, dont think positive, no more GOD in heart, this is all because of my PRIDE that I keeped inside. It made me guilty. Actually I'm not like this before. This is all started when the BIG trouble crossed my life. I was really down at that time. I think I'm going crazy. I can't think well, almost mad everyday, my friends can't understand me, I hated person. It seems like I'm alone at that time. I mostly say bad words, do bad things such as smoking and drink hard beverages, always say "BAHALA NA...". And mostly reasoning "I'm lacks of love of my parents", "Nobody cares for me at all", Nobody appreciated my doing", They dont like me because im fat".

... I could say that was a BIG BIG disaster come in my life.

....Hay......I'm tired of being like this. I want to change, I want to live normal.